Pixi's life

Seriously I am NEVER having children...NEVER! One of him pisses me the hell off already the last thing I need is another one.
All he does lately is piss and moan and bitch and yell....comes home and starts to scream and yell about every fucking thing. I am so sick of hearing it . Lately I can't wait untill the 20th so he can leave and I don't have to hear him for a freakin year......UGGGG

Everyday its something new I swear and he does it just to PISS ME OFF!
Yesterday it was because he couldn't find his PT shorts and somehow it was my fucking fault cause ya know....I go around wearing his fucking PT shorts right? I pick them up and go " Hahahah Im gonna move these somewhere he can't find them cause it will piss him of so bad" ........NO! I put his shit into boxes but the only thing I put in was his clippy t-shirts, one box of his normal shirts. NOT HIS PT AND ARMY SHIT

Today it was because he called and told me to get ready to leave to go to our friends house...so I went to go and take a shower and he bitched at me because I wasnt downstairs to hear the ups man come with his package. I waited all fucking day for the ups man and he came not long after I got in the shower. HE told me to get ready ...then bitches at me when I did...WHAT THE FUCK!!

I can't stand men sometimes.....

Remy Fredrick Butler
Born- Today July 15th 2008
Weight - 7pounds 4.9 ounces
Lenght- 17 1/2 inches long

Congrats to Kristy and Dad for the new addition and to Brandon for the newest little brother in the family
Looks like we're gonna have to start making a lot more room!

I have 25 days left before I officially no longer work for the PX ! After 3 freakin years working there..AT FUCKING LAST!
and I have 2 more months before I am finally heading back to the states
We will be making our next destination at Ft. Drum New York  for anyone who wants to come and see how pretty New York is just don't come during the winter time cause I heard the winters there SUCK!  Im sure I'll be making a trip to New York city hopefully while I'm there, and perhaps a few trips to Canada Eh?

 *sniff sniff*  MY buddy Tara is going back to the states :(  This so freakin sucks cause Tara is cool as hell, shes my fellow artist too.
Me and Tara and Madi. and Javier are the doodle crew at AAFES, we all have drawing books we bring to work with us and hang hang out and draw pictures. We even have our own Deviantart page now..it so ROCKS!

But ya Tara and her hubby are going back to the states here in a few days :(  They are going back to NY.. Fort Drum which is way up north New York.  We had a party at work for her on Sat. and I made her a poster with everyones picture on it and right in the middle is Javier, Madi, and me giving the S. L .C sign  for Softlines Crew ! I put softlines crew 4-Eva around it. It was pretty bad ass and She loved it.  We had cake and they got her a card and of course I bought her a Penguin cause everyone needs a penguin to remember me by! hahahah   Madi says we'll have to grab her one day and all go out to the mongolian place up the road.

Next weekend me and Brandon are going to some Marriage retreat with his Unit...so I imagine there will be a lot more drinking to come over that weekend too. Maybe we'll even learn a thing or two....heh :D

Till then

TA TA

So yesterday my friend Teena calls from Heidelberg and asked if i was doing anything for the day. Now I don't get to see her much since Heidelberg is like 30 some min from where I am and with a lack of car and her hubby using theirs all the time its hard to see eachother much anymore. So I said ya we could hang out and perhaps go to a bar or a club later on that night by ourselfs or with a friend of hers. Got ready and she came and got me...got money...got drink and snackage and then headed back to her place.
To waist a little more time we drove downtown Heidelberg parked the car and took the trolly the rest of the way in town wich wasn't too far really just a few stops. First we stoped at Crazy Gregs and I got a new lip ring thats a little smaller and lays against my lip more and she got another little ball that glows in the dark for her Monroe Piercing.

So went downtown and walked around but everything was starting to close up so not too much we could do really. Man I really wish I had brought my camera so I could take more pictures to put up. Just walking downtown was so freakin awesome!! I love the town cause its all so close togather and so old but beautiful. We walked and walked and walked and I found a store that ironicly was named " Butlers " so I had Teena take a picture of it on her cell phone so I could get it later. We got into one store and Teena found a blue tanktop that said " Hanging in there " and had a picture of a saddle non the back and almost got a good pair of jeans to wear but they where too short and she is just too damn tall!  They had a pair of jeans I kinda wanted and a lot of sponge bob shirts wich I thought was very funny actually. But it started to get late so we headed back to take the train back to our car and goto her house again to get ready. On the way there we ran into a big group of guys all wearing the same shirt and one of the guys was holding a box selling things for money cause hes getting married soon. They had little candy bars to snack on and small bottles of Vodka and the funniest thing was they had seringes not small ones but the bigger ones filled with a shot of flavored vodka in all diffrent colors so we got some and the little candy bars (still wraped) and got back to the train and back to her house.

Made a pit stop at her friends house only to find out her hubby got home early but didn't want to go with cause he was " too tired." Got ready and her friend Leo came and got us, Leo is pretty cool kinda gothy guy with some bad ass contacts that make his eyes look all golden and evil and shit...freakin nice as hell!  Anyways we got food to eat and I got some small bottle of liquor they sell at the shopette for like a dollar or so each and its just pretty much a shot. Got one of After shock and the other was mango flavored rum...my favorite and cameras since I forgot mine.

Got to the club now there are two parts to this thing the front area is a lot bigger has a bar, and open standing and sitting area with tables and seats and all that and then like a med. sized dance floor where they mostly play more hard rock, metal, punk music stuff like that...songs everyone knows. Then you walk down a little hallway to a back room that is all tables and chair and another bar called  " the backstage ". You walk through some black curtains things into a actually very small room with an idy bitty dance floor a dj off to the side and like 2 or 3 tables. In this dance area they mostly played industrial goth, goth music (it was goth night) And more of the people back there where dressed goth. We stayed back there for a while and just sat and watched but only a couple of people at a time would dance so it got kinda boring. Well I took out some damn Euro and was expecting to at least use some of it while I was out since I took it all out anyways. I started with Tequila  since that was the only thing there I could actually drink. Then decided instead of mixing too much I'll just keep taking Tequila shots and drink some Smir. Ice drinks since its lighter. I so lost track after a while cause we took that vodka shot before we went into the club my shots and my ice drink and many many shots of Tequila I didn't even rember where I stoped at....it was freakin NICE!

The scary part is the Tequila didn't bother me at all even the first shot I took it like it was nothing so I must be getting used to drinking it or it was very weak Tequila wich I don't think it was. We moved out to the bigger room and started dancing out there instead and they played " Ring of fire" by Johnny Cash. A lot of Limp songs a few old Korn songs and the funniest song they played was they played one of the songs from off of the movie " Hackers " Wich both me and Teena reconized right away and knew exactly what scene the song was playing on the movie....the part where they are all skating around downtown to play the pranks on the mayor guy.  Me and Teena laughed cause we felt so freakin old for actually remembering that!  They played a few system songs and we hung up out there and started jumping up and down and yes....even got a little head banging in there. There was a bunch of guys next to us who kept starting a mosh pit and was trying to get us to join in but we declined and just pushed them all back when they got too close to us and danced closer to Leo. They played old ass song from like highschool man it was so much fun and my neck is flippin killing me now. We didn't leave there till like 2 or 3 am when they decided that I was well beyond drunk enough ( I started slidding down the walls standing outside and sat on the floor for a while) and headed back to Teena's place. Leo drove us back and I rember hugging him and then standing there for a moment cause he felt really warm and I didn't want to move. Then somehow I managed to walk myself up the stairs sliding along the wall and walking slow to her apartment (she lived on base) and passed out on her couch for the night.

Got just barley enough sleep got back up headed back to Mannheim stoped at Mc. Donalds and got a chicken ceasar wrap wich was actually really good and cirly fries. Had enough time to go back to my house strip change clothes shove down my food really quick despite feeling terribly hung over and race up to work to work the closing shift.
Man the first few hours of work sucked so freaking badly with the hangover from hell but it was well worth the entire trip there cause its been so long since I've had that much fun with friends of mine...especially Teena...I miss that girl!

Next week I have friday and sat. off and theres a fest that just started up downtown Mannheim...so perhaps I'll take her there next weekend for some rides and perhaps some more drinking fun!!

ta ta

*click over birdie to hear song*


Blackbird singing in the dead of night
Take these broken wings and learn to fly
All your life
You were only waiting for this moment to arise
Blackbird singing in the dead of night
Take these sunken eyes and learn to see
All your life
You were only waiting for this moment to be free
Blackbird fly
Blackbird fly
Into the light of a dark black night
Blackbird singing in the dead of night
Take these broken wings and learn to fly
All your life
You were only waiting for this moment to arise
You were only waiting for this moment to arise
You were only waiting for this moment to arise

my dream involved Tasha
I went to visit her at...I believe an apartment but I didn't reconize the place she was at.  There was a baby too but it belonged to I think someone eles that was there for the moment visiting as well. Cause I came in and kept saying how cute the baby was and then I think the person left (it was a woman with a baby) 
Tasha looked diffrent....not appearance well a little on appearance but not much. She dressed diffrently. I was always use to her wearing these cute little party shirts and t-shirts and like fun flirty shirts but she wasn't this time. The clothes she wore where diffrent...she wore like longer sleved shirts that were longer sleved and covered her up more, the shirts where still very cute with some like pretty blue green color with some kind of design on it.
Anyways we where playin around in front of a very strange building wich reminds me almost of a sort of fun house or something.
It was very tall and kinda twisted around in a swirl like the top of an ice cream cone but thinner and longer. Like I said I think it was a fun house of some kind. Well it was empty but we decided to sneak in to check it out and the staircase wraped around along the length of this building and went to the top. It was lite up but you could see that no one was there and we knew we shouldn't be in there but we were anyways. We went into a room and started messing around with some papers and got on a computer when we noticed that someone was in the building with us standing not too far from the room we snuck into standing gaurd. We knew we both wouldn't get out so I decided to jump out and distract the person dressed in some kind of very odd looking outfit and distract them so she can get away.  Well I jump out into the hall and he turned around and started running towards me, but i opened this door that was in the center of the building that looked like just a door. But when I opened it I fell into it and started to slide down and around and around and around. It was a twisted slide that was right in the middle of this buliding like an escape rout. The guy came down after me and thats when I realized that he had a gun on him and he started shooting at me while im going down this slide. For some reason im not worried cause he seems to be a realy crappy aim...he never touches me once.
I kept thinking if I make it down this slide and out into the grounds he can't touch me cause its not his property anymore it goverment and he'll stop chasing me. So I get all the way down to the end of this long never ending slide and jump down and dart out a couple of feet past this fence and just as I suspected he got to the end of the slide and stoped not going any further. Like he was traped or he knew he couldn't do anything anymore. I stood there with this funny smug look on my face and then thought " Oh my god Tasha is still inside! What if she didn't make it out" I knew I would have to go back in there to get her but just as I was going to she called out my name and I turned around and she was standing out kinda a distance waiting for me so we could leave.
I turned and looked at the guy and gave him some kind of look knowing I had one and turned and walked away with her and the alarm woke me up....

I don't know....
I have some fucked up dreams
But i havent been having too many involving people back home thats the first one i've had in a while now.

So who wants to be in my next fucked up dream???

It is good.....


*click the ducky for song*




ok on that note
how was my day, or my past week or so ...............FUCKING  GAY AS HELL AND I HATE MY DAMN JOB!!
How is that for an answer.  I hate my job and I  freakin  HATE christmas........it is now at the very very VERY very bottom of my list of holidays...halloween and St. Pattys still being on the top :D

The more I work at this damn job the more I seem to hate this holiday cause people act like is all about presents and give me give me give me! People act like such.......jerks come the holiday
Like its my fucking fault you waited until 3 days before fucking christmas to come out and buy your fucking gifts...DUH!
they come in all pissed off cause we don't have this or that or what they wanted...well then MORON you should have started your shopping a while ago like all the rest of the resonable people instead of waiting till the last min.  Its not my damn fault that someone eles came and got it before you.......DONT WAIT TILL THE LAST DAMN MIN!! Then they come to the store and start bitching and being grumpy at us like its our fucking fault?? DUH DUUUUHH DDUUUUUUUHHHHHH I FORGOT MY HELMET!!

Ok I had one today that made me laugh
Some guy and his wife where checking out with me and they wrote a check but when I ran the check through the right way it came up that the account was overdrawn so it didn't work. Then they used a card instead and it went through and I gave them the check and the receipt back and he stood there and asked me for ten fucking min why the check didn't run through but the card did and suposibly they are on the same account. I told him I don't know that has something to do with his bank he'll have to call and ask them why its not working...then HE ASKED ME AGAIN!  and then AGAIN and again why one didn't work and the other didn't and I had to tell him several times that I DONT FUCKING KNOW it has something to do with the BANK..>WE ARE NOT THE FUCKING BANK GO AND ASK THEM I DON"T FUCKING KNOW!!  its called pick up the phone and ring up the bank and ask then DUN DUHH DUHHHH why doesn't this work! We are the PX YOU MORON NOT THE DAMN BANK! Eventually I got frustrated with him and walked away cause I wasn't going to sit and argue over why his damn account didn't work.

I am SO freakin tired of this damn job its not even funny....it has offically grown on my last damn nerve it really has. I think I'll stay there until after christmas holiday but probably not much longer then that.   I didn't get too frustrated today cause I was too cramp and hurting to give two shits about what the fucking stupid manager and the supervisor was bitching about today....blah blah blah blah who the hell cares!

I forgot how much fun this thing is because unlike myspace I don't have half of my co workers on here....hell i don't have ANY Of my coworkers on here so I can talk as much shit about work as I want to and not have to hear about it! HAHAHHAHAHA suckers....


Let see what  is there........Mercedes my friend who lives downstairs got all of her stuff for her baby from her mom. Im talking she bought her EVERYTHING! Baby bath, bed, swing, diapers, decoration the whole damn thing. She's having a boy so shes gonna do her room in baby Loony Toons. Shes got it all for the crib and even stickers to put on the wall, so now on my next day I'm gonna go down and help  her paint the room all a color and put up the stickers and set up the rest of the room before all the rest of the stuff come. That won't be until march.....and if we're lucky he's born a little early and he'll get to be a PISCES like ME!! cause we ROCK! Oh ya...;)   I'm hopefully gonna be the one who goes with her to the hospital when the baby come since her hubby is downrange and they won't let him come back for the baby being born. She doesn't really have many friends over here and no family so I imagine having a kid in a strange hospital all alone would really SUCK!
But thats pretty cool and freakin scary at the same time being in the room with her during the whole thing.....that is if they let me come. We're over seas so there a good chance they might not let me  be in the room with her.......
But being there when hes born and being one of the first ones to see him and watch when she gets to hold him, and he starts to scream and cry for the first time......awwwwwwwwww

well ok i guess thats it for the day


oh ya my husband..........is a freakin retard!!

I HAVE SPOKEN!..............................................




thank you for listenin

*hint click picture for song mp3*

Reba McEntire- I'll be


When darkness falls upon your heart and soul
I'll be the light that shines for you
When you forget how beautiful you are
I'll be there to remind you.
When you can't find your way,
I'll find my way to you.
When troubles come around,
I will come to you.

I'll be your shoulder
When you need someone to lean on.
Be your shelter.
When you need someone to see you through.
I'll be there to carry you.
I'll be there.
I'll be the rock that will be strong for you.
The one that will hold on to you.
When you feel that rain falling down.
When there's nobody else around.
I'll be.

And when you're there with no one there to hold.
I'll be the arms that reach for you.
And when you feel your faith is running low.
I'll be there to believe in you.
When all you find are lies
I'll be the truth you need
When you need someone to run to
You can run to me

I'll be your shoulder
When you need someone to lean on.
Be your shelter
When you need someone to see you through
I'll be there to carry you.
I'll be there.
I'll be the rock that will be strong for you.
The one that will hold on to you.
When you feel that rain falling down.
When there's nobody else around.
I'll be.


I'll be the sun
When your heart's filled with rain.
I'll be the one
To chase the rain away.

I'll be your shoulder
When you need someone to lean on.
Be your shelter
When you need someone to see you through
I'll be there to carry you.
I'll be there.
I'll be the rock that will be strong for you.
The one that will hold on to you.
When you feel that rain falling down.
When there's nobody else around.
I'll be.
I'll be

The only update I have for today is



To DINKY who's birthday is TODAY!

HEY THERE MR. DINKY HAPPY FUCKIN BIRTHDAY!!
:) :) :)

Let see Monday I had off so I sat around and slept all fuckin day and didn't want to do JACK!!
I actually had a day off and I was gonna sleep and enjoy it before its back to the grindstone again
I swear working this weekend took a LOT of energy out of me for some reason. I slept till like 4 something yesterday and I still felt tired.
Even today I find myself taking little naps every now and then to get a little extra sleep. Whats up with that?

Today I slept in fairly late and then went downstairs to see Miss Mercedes to do something with her today.
We went and got her a new ID card cause shes lost 2 already *shakes head*
Then we walked over to the thrift store to see if we could find any good baby beds and baby seats and all of that since shes 6 months preggy now.
A few seats and such but not much there that sparked her interest, we might go back
Then we walked over and signed her up for some "Anger management " classes for the fight she had with her hubby before he went to the big litter box. She ended up signing up for parenting classes and job and finance classes as well as a whole bunch of other stuff. Then we went in and she talked to someone about fixing her resume online so she can get a job or something to get her out of the house.
Went and got her a schedule  book so she can keep track of all her classes, went and bought some frozen Lasagna and now I'm sitting here munching on it while writing this. Shes in talking to her hubby online

petting a very fat pussy.............................I mean kitty.....

Ya get your mind out of the fuckin gutter...ya pervs :P

Love peace and chicken grease

Since we are going to try and bring back these live journals, I thought why not post to start it all out.

Lets see here,  we are still in Germany and will be for at least another year and a few months time.
In which we will be returning to Missouri to spend out the rest of our lives.

We have NO children yet and it seems no desire to have them for any reason at all
We do have cats, 3 of them in fact and they act very much like whiny spoiled little children in which half of the time I want to kick them out the door.
We do now have one beautiful God daughter Rannyn Alysse, through our friends Brad and Meghan who is cute as a button. As well as one new little baby brother (brother In law for me) Owen Christopher,  and it seems another on its way already.

I still work at the Px up the street, and I still hate it with every passion of my being.
Especially now that its getting closer to the holiday season and everyone is turning into holiday shopping dicks, I hate it even more!
What is it about the holiday season that turns people into assholes all of a sudden?
They become rude and pushy and demanding, they bite at the poor people working at stores just doing their fucking jobs
and do nothing but yell and bicker about everything under the fucking sun until come christmas time.
And everyone wonders why so many people now a days do not like the holidays and care not to celebrate christmas.
Its turned into a Give me give me give me holiday, cause thats all people want give me this and give me that I want I want I want....


Anyways

My lives become pretty average....a good routine of doing nothing but going to work and hermiting myself in front of the glow of my computer every night till I grow tired and weary, go to bed and get up to do it all over again.




blah I'm tired...time for bed

Goodnight loveys

Till another day comes...

Carolyn I bet youve been wondering where I got those photos and im sure you want to see them,since you where faaarrrr to drunk to rember anyways :P A little Asian birdy came a sittin on my shoulder and whispered a few things into my ear ;) Im sure you can figure it out :D
And here are your pictures

Tom Petty- You and I will meet again

You and I will meet again
When we're least expecting it
One day in some far off place
I will recognize your face
I won't say goodbye my friend
For you and I will meet again

I heard you singing to no one
I saw you dancing all alone
One day you belonged to me
Next day I just wouldn't know
Someday all the rules will bend
And you and I will meet again

I've got a feeling
I've got a feeling so strong
Maybe someday our paths will cross

A red-winged hawk is circling
The blacktop stretches out for days
How could I get so close to you
And still feel so far away?
I hear a voice come on the wind
Sayin' you and I will meet again
I don't know how, I don't know when,
But you and I will meet again




I cant listen to a Tom Petty song now with out thinking of Arizona. Every song just reminds me of those warm summer days with the sun shining bright, Heading out to the lake on long streches of road where theres nothing around us but the great wide open and lots of room to breath. I miss those days and I'll have them back again...someday.

NOw all of you go out and drink lot of guiness and irish flags, and watch boondock saints like a millon times over. And if you havent seen boondock saints yet SHAME ON YOU!! *smacks hands*  I demand you go out and buy and watch it NOW!!

ave a merry st pattys to ye

Erin

I had the oddest dream last night, and it made me think of stuff I hadnt in some time. Like things I rember when I was a little kid..thing I dont actually rember at all untill now. Ok part of my dream was I was in Arizona again and I went to Metro mall (of all places) but it looked...wierd. I couldnt figure out if I was in the past or the present, but I was the age I am now. I went around the mall rembering things and places in the mall I went to all the time when I was much much younger (we're talking like late 80s early 90s here, we came to arizona in like 1985 or 86 ) Part of the places I went was somthing that was where the dillards is now. Like you walk in through the food court entrance and head all the way down and right across from the food court area is dillards. But there was somthing there before it was dillards...I just cant think of what. So now im curious...what was there before that dillards was built, cause I know it wasnt always a Dillards there.

Very strange...

The Rule is that you take the best picture you like from the first page of Google Images results.

1. The city and state of the town you grew up, no quotation marks.
 Phoenix, Arizona
2. The town where you currently reside.
   Mannhiem Germany    That first buliding on the left side of the baseball field (the baseball field is the one on the right the larger field is a playing field)..that very first buidling is actually ours :)  YOU CAN SEE US!!
3. Your name, first and last, but again, no quotes.
     Erin Butler   Suposibly im a little kid riding horses at summer camp *shrugs* who knew
4. Your grandmother's name.
     Betty Woodworth   Betty was her nick name
5. Your favorite food.
     Chocolate MMMM makes my mouth water just looking at it
6. Your favorite drink.
    Snapple Mango  That stuff is SOOOO good, you have to try it!
7. Your favorite smell.
     Jasmine flowers in bloom The plant in the back yard of our old house in AZ bloomed every spring, and OOOHH did it smell beautiful! I miss that plant

IT HAS BEEN ONE YEAR TODAY THAT WE HAVE BEEN MARRIED! HAPPY HAPPY HAPPY ANNIVERSARY TO US!!
Yes one year ago today in a small cave on a fairly rainy day, we got married..and I got dirty crawling around in a tiny ass cave! But I love him and I wouldnt trade it for the world!

So far today we woke up and made biscuits and gravy and oj smoothies wich it all was realy realy yummy. I love biscuits and gravy. We've pretty much hung out around the house all day, but belive me there was plenty of "Fun" in there as well ;) I dont need to go into details...

We already gave eachother gifts before hand, I got this realy pretty Citizen watch set. Its this realy nice gold lookin watch with little jewels all around it and it came with a matching bracelet as well as a box of nummy chocolates and a cute teddy bear..and of course a card. I got him this realy nice Citizen watch in return that I've had my eye on for some time now. It just the look of it, I dont know I like it a lot. He got a whole bunch of yummy chocolate treats as well and a card..no teddy bear. :P

We'll Here is to you and me baby and one hell of a year togather, and many more happy ones to come.

I LOVE YOU! HAPPY ANNIVERSARY! XOXOXOXOXOOXOXOXOXOXOOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXO

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So monday I had the day off, and woke up early on tues to go to work and low and behold MY THROAT hurts. Its realy sore IM caughing and wheezing it hurts to swollow water..WATER! I went to work and took some meds hoping that that will hold it over till I got home. NOPE! I took to advil and a bit of vick non drowsy shit (wich always makes me drowsy anyway) Now Im wondering around work like Im a freakin drunk. Boss sends me home. Get up the next day and I feel a crapload worse, call in and go to see the doc. He puts in my his computer all the symptoms I have and came out with..I have STREP! yep I knew it would catch up with me sooner or later. So I get all these drugs and sent on my way. I havent been to work in a whole freakin week now, wich any other time would be freakin awsome, but because of this IM FUCKING MISSRABLE! I feel dizzy and weak, I havent been eating much. Before I got the meds most of the stuff I was eating I would throw up anyway. I should have been able to go back to work today, but I sound so freakin squeeky right now and im still coughing. Now my Big thing is these fucking nose bleeds. I keep getting them every couple of min and they'll go for 10-15 min from both sides. Then it will stop then when im not doing anything sitting on the couch it happens again. I cant get it to stop cause the meds dryed me out so bad my nose is dry and decides it wants to bleed all the damn time. Ive had like 3 or 4 in just the morning alone! Now I Know i need to finish those meds to get rid of teh rest of this sore throat and cough, but it is worth the gushing nose every couple of bloody min.

I might call in and ask if they have something not at strong. I stoped taking the 800mg Ibprofen cause thats a big cause for it.

Ok I feel realy dizzy, Im gonna attempt to swollow down some roman since i havent eaten anything. I lost a lot of wieght since I got sick from being too weak and throat hurt too much. Plus my ribs are all swollen and sticking out from caughing a lot.

need ...rest

nite nite childrean